Why I Love Being A Sister Servant of the Blessed Sacrament
Sr. Bellanira Meda, SJS – I’ve always had a strong foundation of prayer, especially the Rosary. At 23 years old my searching for God began to increase and I found myself on the internet looking for anything related to the Virgin Mary and Jesus. I listened to Catholic radio all the time and read many books about the Saints. I purchased a statue of Our Lady of Fatima and made an altar to her in my bedroom, Mary became my Spiritual Mother. I couldn’t pray the Rosary without seeing our blessed Mother urging me to consecrate and dedicate my whole life to the Lord, but I felt unworthy to the vocation.
One Sunday during the homily the priest was talking about vocations, when he walked down the aisle and came right up to me and said, “We need religious vocations!” I began to cry as I knew this declaration was meant for me. The next day I went to the priest. He sent me to the Diocese of San Diego, where I spoke with Sr. Aurora Lopez, the Vocations Director. After leaving the meeting I sat in my car questioning, “What do you want me to do Lord?” Just then Sr. Aurora called my cell and asked if I was interested in joining her congregation, Sister Servants of the Blessed Sacrament. I was so excited and happy!
Jesus gives Himself freely, fully, faithfully and fruitfully, and I meditate on this when I receive Jesus in the Holy Eucharist. Jesus said, “I lay down my life freely, no one takes it from me, so that you [my Bride] might have life.” Jesus pours out his life for me and all of us every time we receive him. To anyone discerning their call to a vocation I say, let go of the fear! Follow the Commandments, go to Mass, spend a lot of time in adoration of the Blessed Sacrament, and receive the Sacraments. Ask the Lord about your mission. He will tell you what to do and will provide you the strength you need.
Nevertheless, I also was inclined to things of heaven and loved Bible stories, which is the reason why I became a catechist. We met every weekend for Catechist Formation program, but I would first check the basketball court before assisting in those classes. One day I found a handsome young man playing basketball with some altar servers and asked if I could join them. The following weekend, I went in haste to the parish basketball court to find again that young gentleman. I found no one and decided to attend the formation classes. Later, the leader of the catechist group introduced us to “our future priest” with a round of applause. The young man walking into the room, was the very one I had met at the basketball court. My mind went crazy thinking it was not fair for someone so good looking to end up as Priest!
Time went by, and I continued to be attracted to him. But now, I understood that it was not his physical appearance that caught my attention, rather the love by which he lived his life. I liked him from the way he looked at people to the way he carried himself. I later came to know God used this Priest as an instrument to get me to the Lord. For on the day of his ordination to Priesthood, I heard a voice. It was clear, profound, piercing, and determined, “If he can give his young life for the church, so can you!” Although, I tried to put it off, the voice kept coming to me insisting I should go.
My Lord gave me the grace to listen to Him more in adoration; and I was determined to inquiry about religious life. The more I knew about it, the more I liked it! “Nothing is stopping you from joining” I kept telling myself. Finally, when I said “Yes, Lord! I will follow You whenever You are” my life changed! I accepted the Lord as my Lord and Savior and I was immeasurably joyful! From that point onward, I always prayed that all young people find their vocation so they can be as happy as I am. After communicating my desire to the parish pastor, he guided me to different Religious Communities until I found the Sister Servants of the Blessed Sacrament. One thing I knew, I wanted to continue teaching bible stories, and I wanted to continue finding the Lord in adoration to the Blessed Sacrament. I found both in this Religious Congregation.
I made my First Profession in 2000 and the Lord keeps calling me every single day to be part of this beautiful mission of building His kingdom through Catholic Education. I can say with unreserved confidence, it is for a better world that I sacrificed my own family and children to be a disciple of Christ and to be a member of the Sister Servants of the Blessed Sacrament.