Sr. Susana Del Toro Vargas, SJS

My mother laid the foundation of my vocation. I remember her praying the rosary and visiting the Blessed Sacrament with such a faith that I was sure she had received what she was praying for. When I came to the United States, I met the Sister Servants of the Blessed Sacrament in Sacramento, California. I was a member of the youth group, a lector and a choir member in my parish. I was also studying and working full time. One day, the sisters invited me to the Holy Hour they had every Friday afternoon at the convent. The idea of becoming a sister really didn’t cross my mind. In fact, when Sr. Maria Elvia Gonzalez asked me if I would like to join the convent, I answered, “I’m not crazy!”

But even then, God was working on my heart. I began to seriously consider the idea. I prayed and I gradually came to know in my heart and soul that He was asking me to respond to his calling. In the silence of my prayers, I finally found my answer: yes, I did want to live a religious life. I want to be with God! I want to serve God 



Shortly after, I attended a sister’s retreat and learned more about their ministry. I didn’t want to be a teacher, though; I wanted to help the poor, the hopeless, the castoffs of society. Then I remembered the inspiring words of our founder, Fr. Silviano: Education is the solution to many problems in our society; knowing Christ is what can change the human heart and inspire us to work for a more just and peaceful world. Then I knew God was leading me to an unknown path, but I was not afraid. I knew He was always with me. Two years of soul searching followed. I entered the convent, even though my family didn’t support my vocation. It was so painful to leave my parents and brothers and sisters, but when I said “yes” to God, he sustained me in my decision and has been my constant love and support every day. 

I appreciate the fact that in my teaching I am able to make a difference in the life of others. Because God makes the difference in my life, my prayer becomes the love in my heart, the strength of my hands, the knowledge in my brain and the word in my mouth. He gives me the courage to face the challenges of everyday living. I thank God for the great gift of my vocation, a vocation that means mystery, action, adventure, sacrifice, commitment, fidelity, fulfillment, happiness, and above all, love. I pray He will grant me the grace to love Him deeply until the day I die.